the winner takes it all..!

I don't wanna talk
About the things
weve gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's
what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all

什么心情？

我现在要的是什么？想的是什么？说真的我不懂耶..其实看到身边“多数”的朋友都在恋爱..怎样都有少少羡慕的咯.. haix~ 好像认识多多朋友哦..不过只是朋友就够了..不想超出界线..
瞒讨厌今年的..做什么都不顺的..总觉得我的东西都被拿完了，我..失去会所有..甚至觉得连朋友都快要失去的感觉..我最近都睡不是很好..想了好多好多东西.. 我在想.我做错了什么？我应该做哑巴？一开口就是觉得罪人的感觉..有时其实我是想帮人的，不过好像越帮越忙的感觉..=( 当我知道别人不喜欢我做的一些行为..我看到她我会很怕..我怕她讨厌我。。（T.T)我不是一个连笔都舍不得用自己的人(T.T).. 只不过是我用我自己的笔用到闷了..想换下笔用而已..还有总感觉我让人觉得我是一个很吝啬的人..我承认我是有点吝啬..因为我不是出生在一个容易得到钱的家庭..我（多数）买东西都是靠自己做工赚来的钱买的..我的工作只是在年尾才有做..我能赚得了多少？买这个买那个我钱也花了不少..心也在流血..辛辛苦苦赚来的钱一下子就花完了..零用钱也不多..如果我不省钱，我哪有钱买那么多东西？希望有人能了解..
haix~学校有那么多功课..烦死了啦！